tyred

I just did something very stupid. I was ranting on this post, then I pressed some key, and the whole window closed. Now I am pissed as well as depressed. Pissed at myself. By the way, I wouldappreciate it if people stop telling me that I don't have to worry about the prelims. I am as worried as anyone else, whether or not I have a confirmed place. I don't want to leave school with a mediocre record, and that is why my math and physics marks freak me out. I am tired of people sayign they would really like to be me. If you knew, you wouldn't say that.

Secondly. I had a depressing dream alst night. I was running after this steam train as it chugged further and further away. This is not a good thing to be dreaming about jstu before you wake up. Especially on a monday morning, when nothing has changed and its the same old routine again.

Thirdly, my parents keep telling me that math and sciences are "given" subjects. Like what the hell is that supposed to mean? Just because they found it easy, doesn't mean that it is. They think that the humanitites are useless, and will very likely force me into the science stream in JC. I am not going to the science stream. It is boring and a waste of time...I do not intend to be a doctor or a scientist. I am going to take the arts, and I shall enjoy doing it.

Tyred sums up what I feel now. This is because I feel tired, and that i've been rolled over by a giant monster truck. Giant as an adjective for monstor truck is actually quite redundant. However, if I was not Julie Chan, Anne would be telling me what a clever girl/boy I was. I liked her outfit today. It was very striking. Maybe if I wore soemthing like that, I wouldn't be so invisible anymore.

Tomorrow starts with chem lab. I hate chem lab. I hate bio lab more. Well, i generally hate all lab lessons. They suck. Wow lok at me, i'm throwing a towering tantrum. I think that it is stress.