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I am very tired...so tired my bones ache and other things besides. I am so very tired of a lot of things. I'm tired of all the stress that's coming, and going to come. I'm tired of trying to be all cheerful every single minute of my life. I'm tired of having to worry about what other people think of me. I'm sick of being on the end of everyone's lsit of priorities. You would think that even family would at least put you at the top of the list, but no... same as everyone else....

and i'm so tired i want to sleep and sleep and never wake up. Of course, I might not want that later on, but being asleep, no one's to know, not even me.